Had a crappy day, and hadn't cried like today in a long time.  I'm a person who tends to bottle up feelings, not because I want to, but because I have let circumstances push away friends.  For a long time I circled my world around a person who in the end wasn't even worth it.  It has taken time but I'm healing.  But my day wasn't about my past, I can't cope with having to choose over the needs of one son over the needs of the other.  I had a Dr.'s appointment with one of my children,  this app was made a month ago... can't change it because he had no meds.  So a couple of days ago my two younger kids school decides to have an "achievement day".  I can't attend, I sign all the permit slips and notify the teachers I will not be attending, that when/if I finish early at the doctors I will then go.  OMG one of them calls me crying that he was not permitted to participate because he didn't have the permit slip.  I signed it in the class room and gave it straight to the teacher, the slip never went to my kids hands.  So here I am at the doctor's waiting room hearing my child cry on the phone and I can't move from where I was.  You can bet who had a piece of my mind when I got to the school... Anyway, not a good thing to put me in a position of choosing where to be....I broke down and the dam was opened and crap I can't make it stop.  Needless to say he doesn't want to go to his last day at school tomorrow, would you? And the irony is the prescription couldn't be filled 'cause the dr didn't write it correctly so I have to go back tomorrow...one of those days.